Our next guest blogger is Rabbi Katy Z. Allen, Rabbi Katy Z. Allen (AJR ’05) is the founder and leader of Ma’yan Tikvah – A Wellspring of Hope in Wayland, MA (www.mayantikvah.org), a congregation that holds services outdoors all year long. You can find Ma’yan Tikvah’s Earth Etudes for Elul a www.mayantikvah.blogspot.com. Rabbi Allen is also a staff chaplain at the Brigham and Women’s Hospital in Boston, MA. It is my honor to call her teacher and friend as she teaches much about the connection between Jewish spirituality and nature.
“Adonai, Adonai, G!d, merciful and gracious, slow to anger, abundant in goodness and truth, showing compassion to a thousand generations, forgiving iniquity, transgression and sin. (Ex. 34:6-7)”
From Rabbi Allen: G!d speaks the Divine name twice! Wouldn’t once be enough? Whose attention is G!d trying to reach?
The medieval commentator Rashi teaches that “Adonai” is G!d’s attribute of compassion, and that the Divine Name is said once before a person sins and once after the person sins and repents. It’s a nice image. I think also about Rabbi Arthur Waskow’s understanding of the four letter tetragramaton as a breath that happens when we try to pronounce the unpronounceable name, and he refers to G!d as the Breath of Life. So, the Divine Name being spoken twice is sort of like G!d breathing deeply twice, once before we sin and once after we sin and repent, or, in the verse above, two deep breaths before naming the aspects of Divine mercy and forgiveness that are available to us.
Jewish tradition teaches that we are to walk in G!d’s ways. Accordingly, this means that we, too, need to have all the qualities of forgiveness listed in this verse. The compassion to a thousand generations might be tough for one individual, but at least we can try to be merciful and gracious, slow to anger, abundant in goodness and truth, and forgiving of other’s transgressions. And taking two deep breaths can help us just as much, or even more, as it can help G!d! If we breathe deeply, letting the air in and out, with conscious awareness that we are bringing into our bodies molecules that were released from some other organism or from the Earth, perhaps we can better manifest in ourselves these amazing Divine qualities.
Philosopher and nature writer Kathleen Dean Moore writes in The Pine Island Paradox: “if you sit still in the dark, breathing quietly, the world will come to life around you…and then you will understand: you are kin in a family of living things, aware in a world of awareness, alive in a world of lives, breathing as the shrimp breathe, as the kelp breathes, as the water breathes, as the alders breathe, the slow in and out. Except for argon and some nitrogen, every gas that enters your lungs was created by some living creature—oxygen by plankton, carbon dioxide by the hemlocks. Every breath you take weaves you into the fabric of life.”
When we are confronted by a difficult situation with another person, if we breathe deeply and remember the water, the oxygen, the nitrogen; the rain, the oceans, the mountains; the rainforests, the deserts, the water’s edge; the frogs, the salamanders, the bacteria – if we in those two deep breathes can allow such images to pass through our minds, reminding ourselves that we are but one tiny part of the amazing web of life on this amazing planet, and that the Breath of Life sustains us all, perhaps we will find it easier to walk in G!d’s footsteps and to be merciful and forgiving. Perhaps we will be able to look more kindly at our neighbors and ourselves. Perhaps an abundance of goodness and truth will seep into our beings, and bring healing to us and to the Earth.
With all my heart and all my soul, I pray, may it be so. Amen. Selah.
Rabbi Allen has some interesting points. One Rosh Hashanah morning I was sitting on the Atlantic Coast, at Plum Island, just after blowing shofar at sunrise. Soon I would be leaving for Germany to be the Yom Kippur rabbi in a small town. The world looked like an especially scary place that year. A rabbi had been stabbed in Frankfurt and a terrorist plot had been foiled in Heidelberg. “It doesn’t have to be this way. Sitting here the world looks so calm, so peaceful, so easy. It doesn’t have to be complicated. We should just watch the sunrise over the ocean and breathe deeply.” Rabbi Allen’s idea combines what Rabbi Kershenbaum said about G-d and us counting to 10 (or 13) when we get angry and the idea of the breathe of life. When G-d created us, G-d breathed life into us. The soul (neshama, another word for breath), is pure. G-d breathed it into us. How do you take a breath? Go ahead. Do it right now. Breathe in goodness. Breathe out tension and stress. Breathe in G-d’s loving presence. Breathe out anger, fear and insecurity.
Margaret, I posted a long comment yesterday and then evidently hit a wrong key and it disappeared! I tried everything I could think of to miraculously make it appear again but to no avail! It was a traumatic experience that haunted my day! I hope I will be more successful today! I am very impressed by your guest blogger today. I have always loved the beauty of nature but have never really been a gardener. Rabbi Allen has introduced a new insight to me that has provided much to ponder. A new way to see things. Your idea of having guest bloggers during Elul is great and I am very proud to have been a guest last year!
Dona, I am sorry you lost a comment yesterday. If you try writing it again in an email, I will post it (and it is less likely, maybe to get lost because you can save the draft. I have been enjoying this project and you are welcome to be a blogger again this year, spaces still available! While I don’t garden (yet) i hope to soon. The connection between nature and spirituality, to G-d the Creator is very real. Rabbi Allen’s blog outlines that and someone there wrote a wonderful poem about G-d the Gardener.
More about breath. Last night we sat outside on our deck, trying to catch glimpses of meteors. There is an actual blessing for shooting stars. Baruch Atah Adonai Eloheinu Melech ha’olom oseh ma’aseh vereshit. (Blessed are You, G-d, our Lord, Ruler of the Universe, Who reenacts the work of Creation.) We saw seven and that was awesome, in its most precise meaning. But there was another moment, on a fall-like August night. My daughter announced, “Mommy, I can see my breath!” A little too early in the season for me, but both the distant shooting stars and the very close at hand breath reminded me of G-d’s loving presence. My mother used to have a T-shirt, which as a COPD patient she thought was very funny. It read, “Remember to breathe!” So today, remember to breathe. Every breath is an opportunity to remember and praise the One who created you in love.